I thought perhaps there may be others who deserved it more. I remember now that you hold that decision in your hands, forgive my forgetfulness.
I will keep it in mind. I know I have a habit of trying to contain such things, but it is very easy to talk with you and I should remember that. I hope you know that the offer is returned. Your happiness and well-being are also a top priority for me. Consequentially, you are always welcome to 'bitch' at me. People are very frustrating, I imagine you might need it.
As for Hawke, you won't need to lose anything. He and I spoke about the nature of this place and the fact there are others I've come to love as well. We've talked about those people and we both agreed that he was taken with them for his own part. You, my dear, are certainly one of the two we talked about. I think he finds you as intoxicating as I do, so I suspect he will try to get to know you for your sake as well as mine or his. I encourage that you give him a chance. He is rather charming.
And for that last part, it is a Thedas thing, from what I've seen. There was a Hawke here for some time before and when I arrived in this city that was not my Hawke. He had every reason to be concerned.
There is no one that I think deserves it more, and I will likely forgive you of nearly anything. I also know I have no reason to think you would take advantage of that.
Since that day we met at the festival, you have been one of the few people that I feel have changed my life. Without meeting you, I'm not sure how much I would have embraced the changes in my life that have become part of me here.
I'm glad you've already discussed things. I know we had a discussion on this place as well and how we feel about one another. So many can't seem to live with openness in this place, so I'm glad we can.
Your darling Hawke is charming, and I'm glad to hear that. Oh the things you make me feel though saying that. How can I be so lucky to have two handsome, wonderful men in my life? I'm thankful for it too. All part of my new life here.
No matter what happens, I'm glad he is the man you love. I am. You know how much I miss those I've loved and so I'm glad you have him here for you and that he isn't out there without you as well.
You've had no small effect on my time here, as well. I can't say I'll ever be thankful to this place or even like it, but you've shown me where there can be good to be found. I'll gladly accept what blame you place at my feet for what good you've found for yourself as well. For that, I can be thankful.
I admit, it wasn't something either of us had considered before arriving here, but I'm grateful we've learned.
The least a queen like yourself deserves are people in her life who know and appreciate her royalty. On that note, have fun with him as you'd both like, just please leave him in one piece enough to return home.
I'm more grateful than I can put words to, if I'm honest. No matter what happens, his arrival here, of all places, after having been in a different place prior as well, tells me I may not need to fear for being separated from him for too long. Even if one of us were to vanish tomorrow, I think I could rest easy knowing it wouldn't be forever.
Much as I would miss you here, Anders, if I could find a way to return you to the life you wish, I would. I have my reasons for not wanting to return home, but I haven't many other choices than this place. I know you, and I assume you both, have that.
But for as long as I can have you in my life, I will cherish it.
And if you keep that up, there's nothing I won't give you. I promise, I have no plans to dismantle your love anymore than I have plans of that for you. I wouldn't do that to you, and he isn't that sort of man.
Besides, playing along with this places games doesn't always amuse me. I am rather enjoying bucking the system by actually embracing emotions and romance and passion. How much better could a fight be when things feel like this?
With all honesty, I'm glad. For you both. Know that, Anders. As happy as I would be for Crow to be here as well. You're very lucky, Darling.
While I appreciate that, you misunderstand me. I don't want to go back to Thedas, I'm wanted in nearly every country, dead or alive with a preference for dead. However, I have to go back. If there is even a small chance that I can help improve the lives of mages by being there, whether it's through my actions or my eventual capture, then I need to be there to make that happen. If I could do what I want, I would never return so long as I could have the ones I love with me.
I think that's beautiful too, you know. your dedication to fight them in your own way, your dedication to what you want and what you feel. Few things are more admirable than that.
Thank you. Truly. I'm well aware of the luck I've managed in having him here when I've done little to deserve it in the first place. It's not a gift I accept lightly. I only hope someone of yours is returned to you as well someday.
You say things like that and I realize that you are much too good a man for me, Darling. I have no desire to change things, but I know how lucky I am. My life is so different here, but I'm happy for it.
I feel selfish sometimes. So much of my life has been caring for my people and now it's just myself, and those new to my family.
Much as I miss then, I'm not sure they would do well here. But I feel I have a family again, so there's that. It's enough.
Nonsense. We're simply both people trying to make our lives different from what they were. However, if we're both going to believe the other too good for them, then I think that may put us on even ground again.
I know what you mean. That's why I went to Haven when I first got here: it's easier to focus my time on tending to others, if I'm to have extra amounts of it.
As long as I am here, you will always have at least one person who counts you as family, Rose.
I feel the same. I'm happy to give you some place safe, Rose. It's the very least of what you deserve.
A place of healing, romance, and sharing. I love the sound of it more and more. I can't wait to see it and see what you do with it. I know it will be fantastic.
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I will keep it in mind. I know I have a habit of trying to contain such things, but it is very easy to talk with you and I should remember that. I hope you know that the offer is returned. Your happiness and well-being are also a top priority for me. Consequentially, you are always welcome to 'bitch' at me. People are very frustrating, I imagine you might need it.
As for Hawke, you won't need to lose anything. He and I spoke about the nature of this place and the fact there are others I've come to love as well. We've talked about those people and we both agreed that he was taken with them for his own part. You, my dear, are certainly one of the two we talked about. I think he finds you as intoxicating as I do, so I suspect he will try to get to know you for your sake as well as mine or his. I encourage that you give him a chance.
He is rather charming.
And for that last part, it is a Thedas thing, from what I've seen. There was a Hawke here for some time before and when I arrived in this city that was not my Hawke. He had every reason to be concerned.
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Since that day we met at the festival, you have been one of the few people that I feel have changed my life. Without meeting you, I'm not sure how much I would have embraced the changes in my life that have become part of me here.
I'm glad you've already discussed things. I know we had a discussion on this place as well and how we feel about one another. So many can't seem to live with openness in this place, so I'm glad we can.
Your darling Hawke is charming, and I'm glad to hear that. Oh the things you make me feel though saying that. How can I be so lucky to have two handsome, wonderful men in my life? I'm thankful for it too. All part of my new life here.
No matter what happens, I'm glad he is the man you love. I am. You know how much I miss those I've loved and so I'm glad you have him here for you and that he isn't out there without you as well.
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You've had no small effect on my time here, as well. I can't say I'll ever be thankful to this place or even like it, but you've shown me where there can be good to be found. I'll gladly accept what blame you place at my feet for what good you've found for yourself as well. For that, I can be thankful.
I admit, it wasn't something either of us had considered before arriving here, but I'm grateful we've learned.
The least a queen like yourself deserves are people in her life who know and appreciate her royalty. On that note, have fun with him as you'd both like, just please leave him in one piece enough to return home.
I'm more grateful than I can put words to, if I'm honest. No matter what happens, his arrival here, of all places, after having been in a different place prior as well, tells me I may not need to fear for being separated from him for too long. Even if one of us were to vanish tomorrow, I think I could rest easy knowing it wouldn't be forever.
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But for as long as I can have you in my life, I will cherish it.
And if you keep that up, there's nothing I won't give you. I promise, I have no plans to dismantle your love anymore than I have plans of that for you. I wouldn't do that to you, and he isn't that sort of man.
Besides, playing along with this places games doesn't always amuse me. I am rather enjoying bucking the system by actually embracing emotions and romance and passion. How much better could a fight be when things feel like this?
With all honesty, I'm glad. For you both. Know that, Anders. As happy as I would be for Crow to be here as well. You're very lucky, Darling.
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I think that's beautiful too, you know. your dedication to fight them in your own way, your dedication to what you want and what you feel. Few things are more admirable than that.
Thank you. Truly. I'm well aware of the luck I've managed in having him here when I've done little to deserve it in the first place. It's not a gift I accept lightly. I only hope someone of yours is returned to you as well someday.
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I feel selfish sometimes. So much of my life has been caring for my people and now it's just myself, and those new to my family.
Much as I miss then, I'm not sure they would do well here. But I feel I have a family again, so there's that. It's enough.
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I know what you mean. That's why I went to Haven when I first got here: it's easier to focus my time on tending to others, if I'm to have extra amounts of it.
As long as I am here, you will always have at least one person who counts you as family, Rose.
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Even before I don't think I ever truly felt safe. Not like this.
I want the spa up and running for that. I feel it will be more of me working on creating a spa like I had with our caravan. A place of sharing.
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A place of healing, romance, and sharing. I love the sound of it more and more. I can't wait to see it and see what you do with it. I know it will be fantastic.