Yes, that may be the difference. I served my queen for a bit, but that was another life. I suspect the difference is measurable.
Ha. Maybe, maybe not. I have a very strong attachment to my faith, but those from my world see it as wrong and that has made things complicated. I have done things that, I think, a priest would not find easy to forgive.
The man I saw burned to death was a man who's crime was being both Deryni and Priest. My cousin's name is Duncan, and he is Deryni. He is not a man of the Church, he is a man of God.
He is also clearly lacking self-preservation and certain types of intelligence.
All of that aside, he's seen me do some incredibly brutal things and seems to have not only forgiven me but to like me.
I take it all back, he's a man after my own heart and I wish I could speak with him.
"Magic should serve man, not rule over him." I hold to that, but the Andraste never meant mages should be enslaved and abused. Very few agree that was her intent, however. I imagine, should the Chantry ever get a hold of me, they would see me hung at minimum. Luckily, I don't care for their judgement either.
You say that like you're so hard to like. I happen to like you very much.
We seem to never find balance. Rulers who use their magic for terrible things -- and terrible things done to people, including ruler, because they have the ability.
As for my service to the King and his lineage and throne - the day I was named I was made the key to unlock his magical ability. I am not well liked. That has little to do with me, I acknowledge, but it has also never been a concern.
I'm glad you like me; we will see if that continues when you know me.
Perhaps that is simply the way of it. Perhaps there cannot be a peace between those with an ability and those without. That doesn't mean I won't hope to try.
That is an unkind thing to do to a child, a burden like that isn't something to be shoved on another. And then to bear the scorn as well?
[He was getting heated.]
It sounds to me like people not liking you has more to do with their bigotry than any failing on your part.
But, for the record, your liking me will have a similar caveat. I have a poor way with keeping friends and most seem to either like me, wish to strangle me, or both. So we shall see where you might fall in that.
My mother bore that scorn first, in exposing herself as Deryni to pursue justice. I would be known, regardless, and positioning me as near to the King as possible likely saved my life and title several times over.
That does mean, however, that you are very right: it's never been about me. Some people like me quite a bit. Others would like to throttle me. We'll figure out where we fall, together.
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Ha. Maybe, maybe not. I have a very strong attachment to my faith, but those from my world see it as wrong and that has made things complicated. I have done things that, I think, a priest would not find easy to forgive.
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He is also clearly lacking self-preservation and certain types of intelligence.
All of that aside, he's seen me do some incredibly brutal things and seems to have not only forgiven me but to like me.
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"Magic should serve man, not rule over him." I hold to that, but the Andraste never meant mages should be enslaved and abused. Very few agree that was her intent, however. I imagine, should the Chantry ever get a hold of me, they would see me hung at minimum. Luckily, I don't care for their judgement either.
You say that like you're so hard to like. I happen to like you very much.
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[ smug bastard. ]
We seem to never find balance.
Rulers who use their magic for terrible things -- and terrible things done to people, including ruler, because they have the ability.
As for my service to the King and his lineage and throne - the day I was named I was made the key to unlock his magical ability. I am not well liked. That has little to do with me, I acknowledge, but it has also never been a concern.
I'm glad you like me; we will see if that continues when you know me.
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[He was amused, all the same.]
Perhaps that is simply the way of it. Perhaps there cannot be a peace between those with an ability and those without. That doesn't mean I won't hope to try.
That is an unkind thing to do to a child, a burden like that isn't something to be shoved on another. And then to bear the scorn as well?
[He was getting heated.]
It sounds to me like people not liking you has more to do with their bigotry than any failing on your part.
But, for the record, your liking me will have a similar caveat. I have a poor way with keeping friends and most seem to either like me, wish to strangle me, or both. So we shall see where you might fall in that.
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That does mean, however, that you are very right: it's never been about me.
Some people like me quite a bit. Others would like to throttle me. We'll figure out where we fall, together.
And I look forward to the process.
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Mine tried to save me as well. She didn't stand a chance. We have similarities as much as we have differences.
I'm looking forward to knowing you.