That idea is completely appealing to him for his own sake. There's something in his expression, however briefly (and guiltily), that is just a little... wistful, maybe even yearning.
It's gone in a blink though because he stops to weigh his desire for that break, against a much stronger desire: the ability to make this work to benefit Anders.
Once he sees that - and sees it clearly - he smiles.
"I'd like that, too. I can't even pretend that not having to turn thoughts into words and express them isn't sometimes difficult." Sometimes, that's cute. Thoughts aren't the problem, though. "As long as there are a variety of options for what comes next." Meaning ways to make it useful for Anders when he decided that was a thing, but also just practically for his own sake.
"And I sincerely wonder what this place is doing to me."
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It's gone in a blink though because he stops to weigh his desire for that break, against a much stronger desire: the ability to make this work to benefit Anders.
Once he sees that - and sees it clearly - he smiles.
"I'd like that, too. I can't even pretend that not having to turn thoughts into words and express them isn't sometimes difficult." Sometimes, that's cute. Thoughts aren't the problem, though. "As long as there are a variety of options for what comes next." Meaning ways to make it useful for Anders when he decided that was a thing, but also just practically for his own sake.
"And I sincerely wonder what this place is doing to me."